I cut myself too deep and it really freaked me out. I can't believe I cut so deeply. I have never done that before. I had to go to the emergency room, and that was like hell on earth. Thats never happened to me before with SI. I feel like I have failed myself as I have been doing so well the last couple of weeks, and it was just such a small thing that pushed me over the edge. Thinking back now, there is a ton of things I could have done instead... why is it so hard to think of other things to do when SI is about to happen?