The past week after my EMDR session, I felt myself pull away emotionally but not sure if it is because I am feeling like I don't need to be in therapy or if I am just doing my cycle of pulling away after intense emotional sessions. Maybe some of both.

The oddest thing happened to me at the movies today though. I was watching an emotionally charged movied today with my friend and I "caught" myself as I started to cry once and flashed back to my therapy session this past week and saw my T stifle a yawn while doing the EMDR work with me. He actually did that in session but it was late in the evening and I was dissociating from myself a bit because the alter who was holding that pain was crying.

And it was just a stiffled yawn at the exact same time I was watching myself outside my body a bit (off to the left side of myself) and I was thinking "God! I am so SICK of seeng myself bawl in session like this! I am such a woosy!!!" ((I am sometimes too hard on myself about that stuff but crying always reminds me of my weepy dad and I tend to be furious with myself about it after session even though I know I have to express the pain)). But seeing that stiffled yawn while the EMDR was going on and while I was crying and thinking that thought, well put it all together and my thought was "Even T is bored with my crying! Just knock it off and grow a pair!"

So at the movies after my brain flashed back to that scene it shut me off emotionally and I was able to just observe the movie without feeling anything about it. Oddly, I liked it better that way.

Just wanted to post this. Was curious what you guys might think about it.