WePow said that so well I think. I'm sorry your parents are so difficult lyib. I remember something awful happened when you went to visit your Mom before too. It definitely isn't your fault. I'm glad you came back and posted here.

Congratulations on applying to grad school too. If you're able to take the initiative to do that, you've obviously got some abilities to take care of yourself and get things done. I'm confident you can find a support network like you want. It takes time in life, but in my experience, things get better as you get older and have had more time to acheive the things you're trying to do (of course, barring catastrophe's that can happen to anyone, but the point is, you're trying hard and you're headed in the right direction).