I posted on the introduction site but thought I'd start here again. I am still manic and still not accepting this whole diagnosis. For 11 years I've thought it was just Major depression. Even when my pdoc says he has witnessed me manic before in brief hospital stays, it is hard for me to believe him because I don't remember them. But, I trust him, so he must be right. I have read some on mania and know I have most of the symptoms. I have to say today is the best one yet in three weeks. Still not sleeping as well as I should. Even when my meds make me sleepy, my mind ways no, you have too many things to do to waste time lying in a bed! But, being that I know I have bipolar now, I am going to have to learn to live with it. I am just so irritated right now that I can't imagine any kind of productive life in this condition. I've been out of work for a week during the worst of it, but I know I cannot do that very often. I am glad to have found this site and hoping to meet others like me who "get it". I KNOW depression, I do not KNOW mania and Im irritated with every bit of it. Well, hello to everyone and I am going to take my meds and try to sleep more that four hours. Hope to hear from some of you guys later. Thanks for listening. I could say so much more but I am afraid I will go off into some irrelevant ranting and just take up space.