I agree with you guys and I did apologize to her about everything and she did forgive me for them.

I have done a lot of self-exploring about the smoking issue and it came that it was just a mental block that I have had. I am over the smoking issue and when we had coffee the last time, I told her that I fell in love with her independent side and I don't want to tell her what she can and can't do. I made some mistakes but I apologized about them.

I don't know what she means by "I don't want a relationship right now" and I don't want to discuss anything until we are back. She has told me she wants to enjoy her last week here and doesn't want to stress herself out. I asked her if she wants to be with me and her response was that she doesn't know and doesn't want to think about it just yet. Rather she wants to have a proper discussion when we are back home.

She honestly means the world to me and I haven't been able to stop crying for the past week or so. I miss her like crazy as we just to talk and text to each other non-stop through out the day and night.

The mistakes I have made, I have learned and grown from them. How can I make her realize that I truly would like to be with her and I want to fix the mistakes I have made via actions. I can talk and say things but real results come from actions.

Any advice on that?

Thanks