((((Mangled))))

What you have and are enduring is the legacy of abuse, you are a survivor, and no matter what coping mechanisim you utilize..i.e. smiles/humor externally no one has the right to take away your ability to be a survivor everyday, every moment, and to judge someone based on where they are at within their healing, or upon their coping mechanisims..is just wrong..so I hope that you find comfort and healing and contiune to find supportive ppl here that will help you along the way...take care dear Mangled, you are a Survivor..and you are in our thoughts..