Don't know how to start. This is the third online community i've ever joined and now thinking to leave it also. There is nobody i can talk to about how i feel. Due to my bad eating habbits and tentions i'm reduced to a skeleton. My family got use to of watching me careless about my health so they don't take it seriously now. When my mother says me to eat, i get annoyed and when nobody says, i feel worthless. I began more active in doing chores but these can't distract me from my pain.
My friends themselves are not fine and they expect me to emotionally support them. Once my friend said that i'm intentionally doing this as i can control my mind. I don't share to anybody because nobody understands me. I like to remain in solitude in which i do nothing but to wish for death.
My family underestimates me and my acquaintances overestimate me but both expect me to be the perfect person and to serve them. I've adopted ignorance attitude to escape from tentions but it doesn't work. Though i leave everything and everybody, still i'll think about suicide and death. I don't know how long i can survive it...