(((mememememe)))
I'm sorry that you're feeling so low
I really recommend getting some professional assistance to have a bigger, more positive effect upon your life. We, at PC, do care and want to help each other. But, we don't even come close to the changes that professionals can bring about.
Why is that?? One may wonder.
The answer is that professionals get us to look at parts that we don't necessarily want to look at or deal with. They get us to see that we have some control over certain areas of our lives. They gently point out the positive, healthy activities that we can take part in and encourage us to pay less attention to activities that can bring us down into the negative. These changes take effort.
I think that PC can be a double-edged sword, so to speak. In a relatively healthy state of mind, members often share very helpful opinions and support with one another. However, when deep depression is there, reading the posts can bring us down more. Those are times when PC is not helpful & people experiencing the lows pulling them down further, need to go to a professional T for help. Whenever you find yourself pushing others away, increasing SI behavior, those are times when more effort needs to be put into working with a T to get to a better state of mind.
Gentle hugs to you...