Everything i say gets discussed in his team meetings with about 20 other people so i'm careful what i put down on paper because that can't be argued. I've lost trust in the whole mental health service right now but do still hold a tiny bit of trust for him (don't know why). I just want to be so sure i'm making the right decision. I've wrote the email looked it over hundreds of time just scared to press send in case some part gets taken the wrong way or anything comes back to bite me.