I think as I get older and throw myself into DBT, I mirror this description less and less. But this description was me for most of my life, and if I didn't work extreeeeeeeemely hard every single day, this description would still likely be me to a tee. It is comforting to know that I am not alone, that there are so many others out there with this less-often-talked-about disorder, and to learn slowly that hard work every second of every day does help.