(((((osamanda15)))))

I'm sorry you are feeling so low. I think that, by taking the time to post, there is a part of you that DOES want to be happy, no matter how small it may seem! And I think that's a fantastic sign.

I have been where you are right now...so I know that posting cliche things like "it's darkest just before the dawn" will not help! But I can tell you from experience that things WILL get better. I can't tell you when it will get better, because it differs from person to person. But this state of mind you are in, doesn't last forever (although it may seem like it).

Hang in there, and keep posting when you need to!