Hi jess.

I can relate to what you say. I also have phases in my depression. Some days or weeks are good, some days/weeks are bad. I haven't figured out what to do about this yet.

But like you say, staying active helps a lot. When I sit around doing nothing I feel depression coming on. But when I'm doing something productive I feel a lot better. Being around the right people helps.

This is personal, but getting therapy/medications just makes me feel worse. Just the thought alone that I have to do therapy makes me depressed. The fact that I have to do therapy gives me the feeling I'm not moving forward. So I can relate to what you say.

Overall the best advice I can give you is to keep being active. When you're depressed some people have a tendency to quit their job, stop school, stop seeying friends, or quitting weekly fitness. But the bad thing about this is that it often makes depression even worse. So keep being active and keep hoping for the best. That's what I am doing at the moment.

Btw, maybe it's an idea to buy some self-help books about anxiety or depression. Searching at amazon.com for "depression workbook" or "anxiety workbook" gives some good books. Self-help books can make a difference.

Take care and hope you get well again.