Very true, I haven't acted on them, but I did research the plan a bit, and decided I don't want that much pain if someone where to find me. I"m okay for now, I do have a few people that know, but its still hard.

I've learned the art of faking how you really are doing, and I do it very well. No one knows what really is going on except those that I have told. 4 people know who are irl and around me.

nicole, I've also been in a MH around Christmas, actually I got out on Christmas eve. and I don't want that again, especially this close to Christmas. I've actually driven by the one I was in earlier this year. I have told myself several times that I won't be going back. Don't know if that is a good thing or not. Just have to wait and see. But I'll try to stay focused on other things. I can do this.... I have to do this... I must keep it from some people. I can do this.