When I read everyone's short descriptions of their struggles, the commonality I see is 15-20+years of marriage. I have been in mine now for only 5 years. 3 of which my husband has been disabled due to his bi-polar. I honestly do not want to be in this marriage for another 10 or more years if it is going to resemble the past 3. He's been hospitalized twice and on such a variety of medications, who knows who this man is anymore. I get frustrated because it almost seems as though his mental capacity has diminished, he can be so child like sometimes.

I have started flirting with an old friend and that scares me a little. I love my husband far to much to ever have an affair. But the thrill of the flirting is exciting.