I can't give you advice on how to bring out your inner child; I don't know how to do it in session (although my previous T urged me to do it outside of session). My current T doesn't seem to be big on inner child work.

What I can relate to is having an intense session then being worried that it will never be that way again. Several sessions back, my T was very reassuring of the process I was about to go through. At the end of the session, I opened my arms to her and she grabbed me in a big ol' hug and told me, "I love you. I am not going anywhere. I have been exactly where you have been." She then backed her torso up so she could see me while still hugging me and said, "I've been where you've been alone and with help, and while it is not any easier, it is definitely better to go through the process with someone else. Chopin, you are going to heal. You are going to smile more, you're going to laugh more!" While it was happening I tried to memorize every single word and sensation because I knew it would be a special time.

Since then, my sessions have not been as intense. There are several reasons for that (for her: she's been dealing with breast cancer and chemo treatments, chemo then caused tachycardia, all of it has rendered her weak) (for me: reluctance to let anyone inside my wall, physical problems of my own, work stress, death of a loved pet). I'm hoping that both of us could get back to the level we were in the session I described.

One of the problems I am working on is that I think just because I'm not in contact with someone, or they don't tell me they love me every time they see me, or they're acting different one day, I've done something horribly wrong and they're going to leave. I assume the worst of myself and of others.

What I am learning is that nine times out of ten, when anything I've listed above happens, the relationship hasn't changed, and that 99% of the time it has absolutely nothing to do with me. When I assume the worst, I try to acknowledge it is a possibility, but think of all the other (neutral or good) things that could happen.

My meds are kicking in, so I hope some of this made sense or was helpful in some way. Anyway, know I'm supporting you and wish you the best!