Oh Chandler, you dear man, I feel quite a bit worse just having read those lyrics! It's been a while, it sounds like, since you had a good day. I was on the road for two yrs without a day off doing lights for various shows--it's not an easy life. And nobody told me no meds.

I spent a few days in Texas, in a dreary motel room, awaiting a fuel pump once. That was no fun either.

I'm really concerned about your living such a stressful lifestyle with all your health concerns that are largely going unmet. No therapist, no psychiatrist, not even a medical doctor! No SO, no stable home life. Of course you get lots of good, healthy sleep & food, right? Yep, I'm being sarcastic.

Please consider coming in off the road. I know this is a lousy time to be seeking new careers, but until you've gotten your health matters under control you need some stability that trucking doesn't allow. You need to take whatever medication your health requires. & what kind of personal relationships can you find trucking? You're a young man. You need a home. What happened to the Chef & Flight Attendant careers?

Sorry, I know I've been yakking at you like an ol' mama hen. I'm an old lady with no mothering instinct to speak of, but you seem to be needing a spot of mothering just now--pardon my saying so. And maybe cool it on that Papa Roach music for awhile.

Come post here anytime. PM me, & you've got friends here too I noticed. So come on, get the help you need. Make some plans to take care of you. You are worth it.