Not feeling so hot tonight.
I have an optometrist appt. tomorrow and it's the first one I had since my health declined (The last doctor told me i had a brain tumor..I didn't...It's a bit of a long story)
And I'm just feeling really anxious. What if something is wrong? or goes wrong? What if my vision has declined more than usual?

I also have to call out of work tomorrow..actually today by now. My mum scheduled the appointment too late and I didnt have time to request it off.
What if they fire me? or get upset? why couldn't I have been given more time?

Then there's the holiday coming up..I found out we are going to my cousins the friday before christmas for a private celebration with them. Back christmas eve for the big event (50+ people in a city house..yeah >_>) and then christmas day we will be home..
That's a lot of people, and noise, and chaos. I really dont want to go but i dont want to hold my family back either. I just don't want to end up making things worse by going either..

:/ Can I hide? preferably for the rest of my life?
CQ