Im sorry you are in so much pain and feel so alone. You pay your t and doc to help you I highly doubt they just telling you something because they think it is what you want to hear. I really hope you find the strength to ask for more intensive help as you dont sound like you are in a very safe place mentally/emotionally. Your parents are obviously uneducated about depression so dont take what they say to be the almighty word on your issues. PLZ call your ttomorrow and talk to her about what is going on...your thoughts and feelings. If you cant reach t call your doc you can get well i swear. I have been in that dark place i know it feels cold, dark, lonely and hopeless...but there is hope. Just make those calls and you will find the help you need.