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Originally Posted by roadrunnerbeepbeep
Oh Chandler, you dear man, I feel quite a bit worse just having read those lyrics! It's been a while, it sounds like, since you had a good day. I was on the road for two yrs without a day off doing lights for various shows--it's not an easy life. And nobody told me no meds.
I spent a few days in Texas, in a dreary motel room, awaiting a fuel pump once. That was no fun either.
I'm really concerned about your living such a stressful lifestyle with all your health concerns that are largely going unmet. No therapist, no psychiatrist, not even a medical doctor! No SO, no stable home life. Of course you get lots of good, healthy sleep & food, right?  Yep, I'm being sarcastic.
Please consider coming in off the road. I know this is a lousy time to be seeking new careers, but until you've gotten your health matters under control you need some stability that trucking doesn't allow. You need to take whatever medication your health requires. & what kind of personal relationships can you find trucking? You're a young man. You need a home. What happened to the Chef & Flight Attendant careers?
Sorry, I know I've been yakking at you like an ol' mama hen. I'm an old lady with no mothering instinct to speak of, but you seem to be needing a spot of mothering just now--pardon my saying so. And maybe cool it on that Papa Roach music for awhile.
Come post here anytime. PM me, & you've got friends here too I noticed. So come on, get the help you need. Make some plans to take care of you. You are worth it. |
I know what you are saying. Unfortunetly, the Feds have made a Code of Federal Regulation that states no commercial motor carrier shall knowingly employ a person in a safety sensitive position (driver) that has any organic or psychiatric ailment that may interfere with the safe operation of a vehicle. Its FMCSR 391.41 subpart (9). SO I have had to keep my illnesses a secret. Not seeing a doctor or T on a regular basis is taking its toll.
I generally do not listen to music styles like Papa Roach, I'm more of an electronic fan, but I just happened to be scanning thru the channels in Champaign, IL last week when I heard it.
I don't have a home anymore, I sold everything I owned to keep food in my stomach while I was in between jobs. Gave up my apartment and relegated myself to living in this 75 sqft truck. Now that has kinda screwed me, as I have no-where to go.
I was layed off as a Flight Attendant in 2009 and still waiting to be recalled. My Chef life would be great if I wasn't in a mixed episode alot. I just couldnt handle the pressure or stress, being on meds possibly but I don't know. I'm also battling some physical issues that due to sanitary reasons may keep me out of the professional kitchen; I love to cook, I love to see people happy. Just wish I could be happy.
Being a trucker is the most dangerous and morbid careers out there. 1 in 7 drivers will die in an accident within the first 10 years. Those are not good odds, I don't have the facts on that statement, but that is what I have been told thru numerous companies and agencies.
It's a very stressful job, having to drive everyone else's vehicle also including your 75' articulating mammoth truck. I'm 28 and feel like I'm 60. Sucks. I know I need to move on and find a job that puts me in my own bed every night, but I've always been a gypsy, moved alot, lived in 11 states since 2002.
Anyways not to be a drag. But I'm a hurtin pretty good now.