I dont know what happened, but I've hit a new time low.

Crying all day. Anxious. Worried. Crying in stores, at home, all over.

Dread. That's what I feel. Dread that I'm going to loose everything I care about. And I can't shake it. My head hurts bad. My eyes sting. My heart is aching so bad, I can feel it in my throat. I'm too scared to do or say anything that could make what I'm dreading happen, that I cannot move, or talk.

I think I should take something to sleep instead of being awake but I have no sleeping pills.