Maybe it is the ad. I felt pretty good yesterday. And thought oh yippy it's working. Last time I took a similar ad I started rapid cycling.

I found some seroquel in my jumbo psych med pill box. 100 mg so I cut it into a smaller dose. Hopefully I'll just sleep. I dont know if that's a no no but I don't care right now.

I am safe no worries there. I know as a single mom that my kids need me, they dont have anyone else. I just can't handle the dread and anxiety, it makes me want to rip my skin off. The depression voices are back and I know better than to indulge but it's real hard sometimes ya know.

Thanks for listening to me, I can't exactly talk to my kids. It's been a little lonely around here lately I guess. Thank you for caring.