My sis said all my paranoia, panic attacks, depression, etc. is all in my head...that just really makes me mad, ya know? I mean it's like she's saying what I'm going through isn't real at all. My mom used to say the same thing when I'd go to her saying I was getting really severe chest pains.

I'm really sick of being made to look like I'm out for attention or whatever when I'm going through some really bad stuff, ya know?

I don't even know if it matters anymore or not. No matter how things get for me nobody cares and I seem to be so alone anymore. The people I could once relate to are gone from my life.

Support IRL is very rare for me, too. Nobody but my abuse T is supportive of me here. It's like everyone is very selfish, uncaring, and cruel. I don't know anymore.