(((((((emptybee15))))))) I know the feeling, Don't know what I do if it were not for PC. You have a lot of years left and I am sure a lot to give. I have noticed when I give up and don't look anymore that is when some one comes around when you least expect it. Hang in there girl.it will happen! I always think of that song looking for love in all the wrong places! stop looking so hard you never know!