make me feel so down and sad inside...
I was adopted into a wealthy family at 7 yrs old and with my grades I was supposed to go to university...
I met my first husband at 16...17 pregnant and married to someone now I know was just looking for a green card...
18 had my daughter...moved to Portugal... lived my nightmare(s)...if you have seen the film "never without my daughter" with sally field....well, my nightmare was worse and it took me over a yr to escape....
My family never accepted my decisions and they were sooo dissapointed with me...
Because he followed me back I chose a tuff military as my second husband...who actually helped deport my 1st with the rcmp immigration task force...
Moved to quebec with my 2nd husband, posted, and he ended up leaving me for a military officer (younger female of course) even though I was only 28...
Now I am 33, no career...totally messed up....and my daughter is taking drugs at 15....
She blames it on me because I started drinking when my x left me and I have developed a problem with alcohol....

I try to take it one day at a time but all of this keeps flooding my head at any given time!!!!
sorry if this is a bit much..... I really feel like releasing/ maybe venting,
Patricia