So, a couple days ago, I sent T that email when I had that meltdown - feeling all sorts of shame, humiliation and anger. Since then, I've locked it away. I feel like it's not even a part of me right now.

I have a T session today, and I want to make the most of it. I want to make progress....but I have no idea how, when I'm feeling so distant from those emotions.

I may ask for T's help in how to open that door, but knowing him, he'd ask me what I would need him to do to help me...and that's NOT helpful!

When you know you need to address a difficult subject and your emotions are not yet in that place...how do you get there?