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Old Dec 12, 2011, 12:47 PM
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Originally Posted by Adelissa View Post
I definitely want the focus on me and not my family, though the biggest problem in my life right now is getting rid of bedbugs which involves a lot of housework and it isn't being divided fairly, and I get exhausted and all, so I do bash my family a lot for being uninvolved so I guess I can't really complain, but I want therapy to make me feel better and it isn't. I recognize therapy can't change people in my life unless they are in therapy also and they aren't.
Hello, Adelissa. Your therapy cannot change other people in your life the way you might wish them to be changed, whether or not they are in therapy; how those people might wish to change (were they in therapy) might not be in ways you would find helpful to you.

You have to concentrate on only you and pretty much concrete goals to make headway with things, I think. Depression can happen when we feel "stuck" and without choice. But in your case I think you might be giving too much power to your family and, since you cannot change them, that will get you feeling stuck pretty quick.

If you want to get rid of the bedbugs, you can try to do that but if others do not choose to help you, you have to do it on your own. If you cannot get rid of the bedbugs on your own in that living situation; you have to decide whether your health and comfort, lifestyle, etc. is more important to you, and find a better living situation, or you have to change your goals.

There is nothing "fair" about caring for ourselves and that is what life is. However, I do not know why you are letting others dictate how to divide up the work of eradicating the bedbugs that you feel it is inequitable. You get a say in what your part is (your sheets, your room, maybe doing some of the loads of laundry because it might be easier for you than teaching males how to but definitely not stripping or making other people's beds! You are not a maid!). Other people must clean their own spaces and according to an agreed-upon by all level of need/cleanliness! If others aren't doing enough to make sure the bedbugs are eradicated (does everyone know what they are and how they work, what the situation is?) then I would not stay! Staying will only feed depression. You have to make a decision of what is best for you.
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