Sannah, no I don't think it will go away after finals. The bigger burden is the sui thoughts. I honestly hate them.

The only problem with si is the method would have to change. the current method just is not enough anymore. And that's one thing I have to consider. All I can say is I'm trying to stay safe. Meaning I'm in a public place, or with at least one person. But my thoughts are the bigger problem. I'm trying to control them so I can think straight to do well on my finals. I have one in an hour and a half. I've been studying for it, I just hope it's enough, and I can get my mind back before, or at least zone in on the test and not the sui or si thoughts.