EM, that's because we're like pavlov's dog, we don't see the bowl of food anymore, they don't even have to RING the bell; they just make a slight motion with their hand like they're going to REACH for the bell, and we salivate. Maybe it's not anger that was your trigger specifically, that's just a little side trip I took. I was so buzzed when I saw this thread, it's like what I wrote about yesterday, I think to learning1, about not wanting the burden of cheering up my T or my mom or anybody every again! It feels like a burden has been lifted. That static is going, if not gone. I had told a friend who is a T that I would "return home" when I knew what to say to my family. Now I understand a little better why I DON'T know what to say right now - when you were always expected just to please them, what do you say when you stop? I can't wait to see T this afternoon.