"confuzzled" - that's cute, just like you.

What I mean is, if I were the kind of person who could do something permanently bad to myself, I proboblly would. But I can't because - private reasons that I know you will respect.

But, words cannot discribe how terribly low I am and helpless, not to help myself, but to get help from other people. Like, I don't even want to talk to T and usually it is a big help. But, I feel like he can't help me with this. I feel like no one will ever be able to help me with this.

I have no life left in me. I have to snap out of this and I can't! Someone please help me.

Songbird or is it Snowbird coming through?