Yes, depressed but the mind is overactive. That's exactly it. It is a very explosive mood. But I'm not active physically either, although I can go without sleep and not need sleep. It's weird to not need sleep but also be extremely fatigued.

It litterally feels like my bones are trying to claw their way out of my skin I'm so restless, which brings on the pacing and walking in circles. I remember the first few times I had it I thought I was having a heart attack or something. I remember once my step-mother took me to a GP and we sat there and sat their, and I was rocking and crying and freaking out and pulling my hair. The receptionist and other patients in the waiting area just totally ignored me. Finally I got called back and the doctor did an EKG and it was normal, but it felt like my heart was racing a million miles and hour and so was my brain. At that time I could have sprinted around the block 10-15 times. But it felt terrible. The doctor sent us home saying it was "just all in my head."

On the car ride home I got the "why are you so dramatic, don't you know it costs money to see a doctor. You just want attention." That was the last time I ever told my family when I was in distress like that.