Thank you Perna,
after reading your answer it took me a bit to understand how your point of view. Your last part is the part hat kinda hit me... I never even thought about it in that way, but you are so right with that, because i formyself live alot in the past. Alot of times i catched myself already thinking and being stuck in the past. But what has it brought myself? Not much at all, ofcourse... some nice and bad memories, some feelings that cheer up but also some bad/sad once that slow me down and stop me from enjoying and living the present.

Now, even with only them few words from you, i know where i have to work on for myself. I want to enjoy the life again and want to live the life like it comes with everything it has for me.

Thank you alot, i appriciate your words.