I emailed my T about everything I am feeling inside. I was completely and utterly honest about everything I'm going through and how hard it is for me to open up. Will she read it? Of course. Will she respond to it? Who knows? I was honest that I even told her I wanted her to respond but did not expect her to. Truly leaves it in her court. That was kinda big for me. I am going to open up Thursday. I have to trust it's the right thing to do. Nervous as hell, but I'm going to do it. Dammit.