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Originally Posted by paintingravens
I feel very in conflict with myself, and recent events have forced me to come into contact with these conflictions again after having continuously avoided them this past year, more recently the event of my mother having read my diary from middle school through high school and finding out about my cutting, among other things.
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Yeah, that's what did me in a very long time ago - forced into therapy and medicated at 13. I wish I had taken advantage of therapy then. Later I went to the school counselor at college, intermittently, and never really got to dealing with any problems. I don't think I ever admitted to her that I was cutting. Fast forward ten years... Therapy again.
Not knowing where to start is easy to be afraid of, but if you make yourself a little list on a sticky note to take along as a prompt, and just force your way through it, you'll get there. Be honest. Start with your laundry list - depression, SI, etc - and then the counselor can help you figure out where to go from there. They can't help you with stuff you don't talk to them about, and it's their job to listen to people's troubles, so don't worry too much about what it is you're telling them about - they've doubtless heard it before and everyone comes to them with problems, so don't worry about being judged.