This has been a rough few weeks. Finals, the flu, etc. Also I have been split between two relatinships...one between and ex and one between a really stable guy that sorta counteracted my negative thinking. Ugg, it has been a hard few months...but I am still truckin', waiting for a happy day. A happy day will come, eventually. I am late, about 10 days late. The problem is I was having a really depressed day and I slept with a guy that night, I didnt make the effort to...but I was in a devastated mood. I had not slept for days, my anxiety was through the roof and I was home alone and isolated (again). So he offered to come over, but at the time I was stuck between the two guys. So I didnt resist when he put the moves on me, but then a few weeks later I slept with the ex. Now I am late and I am freaking out. How does a depressed nutbag like me cope with being a single mother? How in the hell? I have no support system...or at least a very minimal one. I feel like I just want to not be me for one day, like I just want to not be here at all. I need a vacation from myself. A little bit of relief. Please God, Please whomever...please someone help me. I have been having to work with the flu, it has been hell I just have to work. I am a late twenties college student with no real support system. I am on Pristiq and a new medication called Viibryd. The Viibryd is a "add on" anti-depressant. It's supposed to boost the affects of the anti-depressant you are already on. Seems pretty hoaky. I am convinced though that my tramadol medication that I take for my migraines helps more then anything. If I take just 100mg of trmadol I feel a slight mood boost. I don't know what to say, I just don't feel right today. I still have the flu and I have to go to work, so I know that doesn't help but I know staying home and wallowing in misery isnt any better. Please reply!