Righto, I have been off work since Aug 04 with depression and have tried a couple of different anti d's which just dont seem to help. Between then and now, my ex husband went back home (Zimbabwe) where he took up residence (??) with his 23 year old girlfriend, so that made me feel very very insecure indeed. Then I met some one on line, thought he was special, he wasnt, so i booted his butt out of my home, my son left home to join the army and I miss him terribly when he is not here but i get so angry with him when he is here because i find that just about everything he does or says annoys me and i end up shouting at him. I hate this depression %#@&#! so much, I find that i am spending more time in bed. I cant be bothered with anything at all. i havent even been able to go out and do the shopping or anything and have it all delivered. I hate being like this and cant see it being sorted out. No one in my family seems to understand how it feels to be like this and i cannot explain to them how i feel either. ............... grrrrrrrrrrrr. Want lots of chocolate NOW!!