Thanks for all the support!

It was.. ok. There was good and bad. I kept my appt with T after and that really got me to a good place about it all.

My biggest fear was about maybe having to have blood pressure taken and exposing SI, but that didn't happen so yay!

It was awfully awkward. I followed him back to his office, he didn't introduce himself or anything, just started rapid-fire asking all the terribly intrusive questions. There was no attempt at a connection, bedside manner, etc. but he was patient with me when I took my time answering stuff. It was so odd, so awkward, so uncomfortable. After all HIS questions he took the time to find out my expectations and concerns about medication and I think he found a good starting med for me so I'm happy about that.

I'm SO glad I saw T after it though. I got to decompress and open up more about stuff and address concerns I couldn't tell pdoc about. I'm worried about having access to meds, and she offered to hold onto stuff for me if I wanted her to. We also ended up having a pretty good session about other stuff after that was squared away.

So... some good and bad, but T really helped me feel good about the experience overall.