Your menu made me hungry. I have planned dinners when hypomanic and when the day comes, I have no desire to put it together. This year I am having trouble with going to parties. I have missed two of them already because I get sick the day of the party. Legit, swollen glands, sore throat, headache and cold symptoms, body aches etc. My husband suggested that it could be psychosomatic since it came on the days of two parties a week apart. We have another one next week (not at our place, thank goodness) so it will be interesting to see what happens with my health.

I've been having fear surrounding going out and being with people.

I have also felt the dramatic shifts you are feeling. My pdoc says I rapid cycle. I also go into mixed states sometimes, which are the worst.

I am glad your dinner party was successful, and I am sorry for rambling.