I've just had my latest trial med, Lamictal, pulled because it's made me so irritable. So I hear you! Big credit on going to the cat shelter in spite of that feeling of dread. Major victory for you!
If your self-esteem needs reminding, just yell it to drop by here. Any number of us would be happy to report: BLNsMOM's not totally worthless. Not even partly! WooHoo!