Kaliope, you've helped by just responding.

Yeah, I think about whether I've done serious damage. I once took a glass and smashed it over my head and had dizzy spells for weeks (that was march or April).

No, I'm not back in therapy. I've been trying to find a T who takes my insurance and has an evening appointment.

I could list a million and one excuses. But I do know I need to get it done. I'm going to scout my providers site now instead of reading.