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Dec 13, 2011, 01:28 AM
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Member Since: Nov 2011
Location: Churubusco, IN
Posts: 194
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 i dont know how to do this anymore...my heartache this evening...it made me...feel something i didn't wanna feel...pain...emotional pain...i did like it at all...as a matter of fact it made me so angry they all started getting so noisy...but at the same time...i had to ignore them...and tell them to settle down...and that it will not be worth doing anything irrational over...eventually it will all work out...i said to them...they beg to differ...which caused more heartache and greif...i cant stand this constant in and out...this constant...switching from one person to another in the blink of an eye...it not only changes my mood...but it also changes the way i respond toward other external people...also it leaves me in the dark and i do or say things i dunno about doing or saying...unless someone tells me...or i find out about it by seeing or hearing about whatever...i am not in control of myself...and i wanna be so bad...and i dunno how to be real...i dont feel real ever...i feel like i am nothing or no one...i have said a lot i really hope someone can make sense of these...i dont know what i am doing anymore...
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