Charlie J- Thank you- Ya know I read this and put a thank you and was like IDK what to say

You are kind that is for sure-

I know I keep getting told to give myself credit as a human, don't sell myself short, don't be so hard on myself- I have been told that last one since a child, it has not seeped through (but maybe one day it will)

And Charlie J- reading what you wrote did make me feel better, I think people forget even a simple- I hear you - helps some times

I know I feel as you mention- I just want to make others feel better, I wish i had a sack of happy dust and could sprinkle it on people and it make them happy.. oh wait that sounds too familiar to my earlier life LOL

I just wish I could set out my emotions some days- I am working on it in therapy, sadly breaking down to go try some meds from a pdoc, maybe... I am trying to remember to take breaks in life, to do my art / projects on the side.. but i still find myself in a whirl wind so many times even when trying to stay on that; and some days I just need to rant (lol) as I am sure everyone does some days I could argue that some ranting is construction to get things in order

I am thankful this year even though I have dipped down, it has not been as a few years back of dipping down and staying down.... I still dip down to far for some's comforts but I keep reminding myself--- back a few years ago that was bad, and at least i try to keep moving this year at least- even if it is hard to.

I am not sure which I hate more-- the whirl wind mood swings or depression.... hard to say some days--- both suck :P

Hope you are doing well too!!



And my dog- yes- I have had him for a year and do the ignore thing, and he is just-- so use to his old owners i think still... He is hard of learning but I think I will do as you suggested with the room and have him sit there off and on. go for short walks to the mail box and all... I just have to have patients and time-- and he needs to not tear up the apt LOL

I love him still though- he is my dog now, and i just need to try a bit harder with training him and not caving in to his demand of being with us (my boyfriend and I) all the time.