justme, i'm sorry for your loss.  this week my uncle passed away. there was no warning. he was in great health. when i lost my mother and dad i went numb. when i heard the news about my uncle i went numb again. i think it was my brain protecting me, like way too much information. so gathering from my experiences i think your lack of emotions just yet are quite normal. give it time and you will be able to grieve. i walked my dog after talking with family members and then my tears came. they will for you too.
talking about it helps and that is what you did here.
__________________
Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle.
The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand
|