Thanks you all. I know that I have you all here and for that I'm greatful.

Positive note is that I admitted it. . . I came here to write it down.

I didn't realize there were phone therapists. Have been looking at the options when my boss steps out of the room.

I know I shouldn't. I don't want to. It like its involuntary.

Now I'm just stewing in my aftermath with regret, guilt and shame.

I'll keep you all posted and I have a goal to have a t appt set by weeks end.