I'm 23 now and when I was from 15-16 yrs old I would throw up everything I ate at least 3 times a day and on a bad day I could do it up to 5-8 times a day. With some support and a therapist I was able to find better ways to cope with my self image and stress. Ever since that part of my life I have been able to move on. For the past week I decided to lose weight and I've been doing it the healthy way of jogging/walking every morning making sure that I take at least 6-8 thousand steps, which is about 3 miles. I don't eat junk food and pig out but because of my lack of phyisical activity its alot slower for me to lose weight. Now that I've set myself on this work out plan and healthy diet I feel myself becoming more tense then I should. Just tonight I had ate dinner after 8pm and I know this wouldn't be the best time to eat. I even at a small portion and tried to assure myself that I'll work out alittle extra tomorrow morning. Before I knew it my anxiety level went up and I felt so uncomfortable with my body. I found myself telling my sister to leave my room, I locked myself in my room where I have a restroom and I threw up my whole dinner. How do I find a balance of wanting to lose weight but when I slip on my diet and work out plan I start to have the thoughts of when I wa 15-16 years old and having to throw up everything I ate. I'm scare that I'm going back down the path of becoming a bulimic again. How do I find this balance? I'm so scared.