Hello Beauflow,

It was interesting to read your posts. I wasn't able to understand some of it,but it seems that you struggle with a lot of emotions. I have had problems dealing with strong emotions also. I eventually learned that, "agreeing to disagree" with someone is a very helpful tool. I let people think their thoughts and I don't try too hard at understanding why they think or behave the way they do. I've learned that if someone says something mean to me or does something cruel, it isn't usually anything that I have done anything to deserve it. I believe that people act that way because they are in a bad "Mood" or very stressed out and can't handle their own emotions. I think this way and it helps me to control my own emotions. I like to go for walks when I am very stressed also. Sometimes reading helps. Listening to music. Watching a little TV. I think you are on the right road if you are reaching out for help with your emotions. Plenty of people who are sitting in prison right now, I'm very sure they wish they had managed their emotions better. One act of stupidity can destroy lives. I hope things get more manageable for you

Peace, A.