hey everyone, im a long time visiter of this website. I have never posted in this particular forum but it seems to be the most fitting today.

I am feeling overly frusterated today,I feel like im wound so tight up going to lose it. I hate my job, i hate my life, blah blah. I am 33 years old. Been with my boyfriend for almost 4 years, he is 40. The reason we are not engaged , etc is becasue its been a tough road because I am so insecure and jealous, etc. Anyway, so then there is my job. its an hour commute which i deal with as its a job. but then they have us working alternating schedules, one week 8-5 the other 10-7 because they think we are move productive when we stay late (i am a recruiter). Now this is NOT true. I am so tired at 5 even if I come in at 10. with this commute its putting a hinder on my life and yes i have been trying to find new, closer jobs but no luck. I am frusterated because my boyfriend has a schedule where he is home at 330. I get so jealous that I get mad and resent him.

i dont know, this is all over the place i know but i mean i know I want a family sometime but I feel like i have no time.