I definitely understand what you're saying, Shez. In fact, I use the same word -- numb. I used to feel really guilty about it -- I didn't feel the love, but I knew it would return and that, yes, I do in fact love him. I knew it, just didn't feel it all the time. I eventually brought it up to my fiance because it was bothering me so much. Turns out, he felt the same way and understood what I was saying also. He always knows he loves me, he just doesn't feel it all the time -- especially lately since he's been depressed about his working situation. I think it's perfectly natural. I think it becomes problematic when people decide that losing all the feeling means it will never return and it's time to leave.
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