((((Songbird, Daisy, Snowbird and Shaylee))))

I'm glad you recognise that you won't hurt yourself in that way, but so so sorry for the pain you are going through. I hope your session with T helps. Sometimes actively trying to notcie what is happening now helps. My tendency is to focus on worries for the future and hurt about the past. If I can focus on living in the here and now, that sometimes helps when the pain is bad. I know how hard it is though. Also be gentle with yourself, and give yourself treats - because no matter how yuo feel, you DO deserve to have good things. Try to build in little treats throughout the day - a hot chocolate, time reading, a hot bath - whatever it is that you enjoy.

Be safe