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So day 8 of my new medication " Fanapt"
This Medication is marketed for schizophrenia I know most all meds cross over to all kinds of mental illness.
Its just weird because this is the first medication in the arsenal that have been tossed at me ,,, that I can actual " FEEL" something changing in my brain( I dont know if its a change for the good or bad ,, yet ) , I know... I know sounds weird but I honestly feel my brain changing.. I do know I feel very stupid and sluggish ,,I know my IQ has dropped 50 points .
So far I have just noticed I have absolutly NO ambition to do anything at all. I have spent the entire day in bed ,, not always sleeping but just laying here looking out the window or lost in my own mind. I have been this way about 4 days out of the 8 days on the medication so far . I know it will take my body time to adjust and to seee if it will beat back all the bipolar problems im having.
I also have noticed on this medication that Im losing entire chunks of time ..Yesterday I had a Dental appt at 1pm .. I know after that we had to go to the bank then stopped by my pdocs office to drop off some papers ,, i do remember getting back home and taking my dog out.. then all at once it was 2am ! ( ihave no idea what happened between about 4pm and 2am) and I was going to bed. I got up this morning about 730 and took my dog out ,,came back in and fell asleep woke up about 930am and took my dog out a few times today but I didnt actually get out of bed until 630 AT NITE!!!!!! I really have no damn idea where all this time goes but its scaring me that I cant remember soooooooooo much .
I havent drive in 5-6 months due to chronic lack of sleep , medications and hallucinations ..I hate being dependant my husband he has to drive me anywhere I go .. I KNOW its not safe for me to drive so for now I have no choice but to deal with it.
I see my T tomorrow OH I hope I do .. He told me last week he got a summons for jury duty ..Im so hoping he doesnt get choosen ..I reallly need my weekly T sessions ..
I really wish I could go without medications ((( sigh )))
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