Know for me it was God........I tried to end my life so many times & came so close many of those times & know it was only God who kept me from dying any of those times.....the purpose that God had for my life had not yet been accomplished even though I considered my life over. No more career to hide away from my bad marriage in......there was nothing that I cared about enough to live for anymore.....but God didn't see it that way.

I am so awsomely glad that God saw the big picture of my life that I had no idea would exist.......my mother needed me to get her through the horrible home care person who abused her when she was dying from cancer......& in return.....I got my inheritance & was able to leave my husband....moved 2100 miles away from where I knew anyone & have a wonderful Christ centered life. Never had a relationship with God before.....I just had intellectual knowledge until I moved & was introduced to many wonderful Bible studies where I just couldn't get enough. The growing & understanding was amazing. I continually thank God for my life to start with & for providing me the most wonderful women's Bible study group, the most wonderful church group that has taken me in as family, the most wonderful group of women horse riders that I share so much of my time with & just the most wonderful friends in the world that I never experienced before.

Bad things happen.....it's not all roses........but God has provided beyond anything that I even could have imagined & has provided the people that help me through the rough times & truly care......& I can care in return.

Ah, life couldn't be more wonderful but it wouldn't have been if God didn't make it for me to survive to get to this point......ah, the land of milk & honey????? Maybe not quite...but the journey was just about as long to get there from the slavery situation I found myself in.